One Hundred and Seventy-Three

Happy Chinese New Year. This year would be year of rabbit which is also my born year in 1987... More or less i am considering that i am in old category already. =.=''Anywhere, Old man got Old man's style and fashion ...haha

In Year of Rabbit 2011, I wish all of my fiend happy forever, love forever, rich forever, health forever, lucky forever, and smoothing in work forever. But i think nothing is forever la, this is what is in my mind, perhaps you have another of concepts. Nobody will know you, only you can know yourself. ^^

Back from penang on friday night 11pm and reach my hometown at 6am morning by driving a car. Damn tired with driving because spirit and energy is needed to focus on the road at the same time to ensure the trip is safe. There a bad new since i reached my hometown, non-stop raining made my small village flood. But luckily my home is at the safe area and din influence by the rain. ^^ raining here more than 2 days (48 hours) non-stop. =.=''

Start from yesterday, i am tired with homework such as preparing for reunion dinner ah, clean up the kitchen ah, and lastly enjoy the feeling with BBQ. haha.... i like new year feeling even these kind of stuff make me tired and exhausted. I had prepare 1 menu which including 11 dishes for reunion dinner start from yesterday. ^^ done a great job by alone. Thats why i am in tiring mood now.

Anywhere, Wish my friend all the best and "Gong Xi Fa Chai" Have a nice and great and good fortune year in 2011. ^^

One Hundred and Sixty-Nine

I like this so much ah, especially when start from 2.00 minutes....

One Hundred and Sixty-Three

Chilly with dark weather is what inside my heart. (V.V) I do not know why this would be inside my heart. Maybe i think too much and maybe i m over imagine, or maybe i am over concern. Am i doing the right thing at the right time at the right place? Am i did something wrong about myself? Am i suppose to do so? I do not know, i am lost and i am missing now. Anybody maybe could help me and direct me to the right way and track me back to my way. I do not know what i am doing right now.

Life is just same as the smog in the air, you can see it suddenly at the meanwhile it would be disappear in the air. It just a few second, you can realize the smog is away and disappear from your eye-frame. Its really only needs few seconds (FEW SECONDS). If you are forget or miss to grab the scene, what I can says is "Sorry", you miss the chance. What you can do is just waiting for the next smog cloud in the air. But do remember that the smog is not make by human, Its come from nature and come from the assigned list from the god. If you mist that, you have to wait for another few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years or even decades. We do not know when is the season for the plain smog would fly across. Only we can do is waiting, waiting, and keep waiting.

At the stage of waiting for the next plain smog to pass across, I make decides to make the decision. I will grab all the plain white smogs in the air, at the same time, I would like spray some colour up to the smogs in the air to make it more colourful, to make it more excited, to make it more pure and real. Thats what i am doing usually in my life. I am delighting my life with colourful spray. Only colour that can distinguish what are the plain colour it is at the smog and what it will be look like at the smog cloud. Each colour got their own meaning, the colour at the smog cloud painted is depend on yourself as what colour you want to put more, what colour you want to put less while at the final result that what you want that smog is look like from the different angles. I do painted the smog with seven colours same as the rainbow colour after rain. This is because of the colours that would make my short life great and fantastic. I am appreciating several colourful smog clouds at the air which still rolling on my hands. At the end of my life, how many of colourful smog clouds will hold and stay and how many of them will gone and disappear. I do not know and we do know when they will disappear and gone. So are you the one colourful smog who still rolling on my hands? Do think yourself whether you are the one that i would like to put the colour at the smog clouds in my life. Do think carefully and detail is that worth for me to pain it up the smog cloud with my seven colours. By the way, I am willing to pain it up with my colours if you are willing to hold there as where you are with honest and sincere.

What colour at the smog cloud is depends from which angles and eye-frame when you view that. Different human would be view in different colours at the same angles at the same cloud. But for me, It is almost the same even view from different angles, because all of them are important in my life. I do wish to make more colourful smog clouds as much as possible I can.

One Hundred and Fifty

Everybody is fighting with their performance, fighting with their result, fighting with their ambitions and etc. For sure fighting is the way to promote and perform yourself. This might be a proper and correct way to push you into a higher level in your performance stage. At the same time, this might also the wrong way to push you into higher level. It is depend on what would you like to think and how would you like to think and act about yourself regarding to self performance. ^^ This is very important.

Nothing free gift will fall on your top unless you challenge and fight for it. This is the only way to promote and sell yourself strength to others or competitors. No body will get free gift, except the bird shit which fall from the sky. haha...^^. I am always holding some theories and concepts which might lead you to think that i am kinda stubborn of selves thinking. But it is the real and fact of life. We supposed to act and behave so, at the same time you might refuse to behave so. And what would you get is "BAD" and "ZERO". ^^ Believe my nonsenses, this is real and fact. Do keep in your mind and remind yourself. Otherwise you will only stay the place where you are as the old big tree beside the road. haha......

I did a great challenge in my life. I did it well and i am satisfied with the result from fight, Its worth. ^^ I think there is no problem for coming challenge and task. I still keep the same theories and concepts for another half of my life. I do believe someday later i might independent, I do believe someday later I might hit what I am targeting. ^^ Just the time is short, I do not know which target that will hit by my leg first. haha.... As we known, "LIFE IS SHORT" just do whatever you wish to do, just fight whatever you want to fight, and just challenge whatever you wish to challenge with. Let's live without any regret in your short life. But please do appreciate whatever chances and opportunities which freezing in front of your eye regardless which area or field it is, at the same time do appreciate for your love one which would always missed you before fall sleep but you do not know and do not realize that your love one is missing you before fall asleep. Keep in mind, "APPRECIATE" whatever you having now. Do not complaint about fate, but treasure your living. There are not always chances and opportunities will stick with you, just catch the short chances and opportunities fly across you. ^^ After caught, then only you will realize it is worth for your scarified while holding the chances and opportunities on your hand, even it is though and shape while in the process, in the mean while you might think to give up. Please do not give up anything even is though enough. Please do try your best to achieve and fix with it. You will only feel the sweetness after bitterness in the process. ^^

Wah, so much nonsenses from me, unbelievable. haha....anywhere, I wish you all the best and try to catch what i wanna bring to you. You might deny and ignore my personal recommends and nonsenses. By the way, this is only my personal stubborn view. ^^ hehe..... Good luck. ^^

One Hundred and Forty-Nine

Everybody do make wish for their new brand year for their life. This become nature and normal, everybody will do so for a new opened daily of a new coming year. Have you do some wishes for yourself and for who you concerning? Or do make wishes on behalf of somebody? Whatever wishes and hopes you made, here i am praying for you to realize everything your are wishing and hoping in your life. Because i wish all of my friend would be health and happy forever. I would like to see you in well condition when i meet you up someday. In fact of wish all of my friend all the best and healthy always. Definitely, i do have some wishes and hopes in this year which is year 2011. I can share what wishes and hopes for myself. ^^
1. I wish my family and sibling health forever and belong to me forever.
2. I wish all my special friends, important friends and normal friends health forever and all the best. This year would be your year, would be good fortune year. ^^
3. I wish myself always in good condition regarding to health issue.
4. I hope i can get something special that i never gain before in my life.
5. I hope i will love you guys and girls forever during my life, unless i get leave this world earlier than you.

7 Jan 2011. I am in good condition not meaning that i will in good condition as well in coming future time and days. ^^ This is only my personal feeling and this is my pessimistic of my thinking and view. This is the truth and the process that should go through and this thinking is in -ve way instead of console human in a +ve thinking way. I can accept whatever challenges and fortune comes to me. I do try to challenge and fight with them. This only human life. ^^

I accepted one new bad fortune in this year. Just few days ago in 2011, I feel something bad and poor that might kill me due to my health problem. I did checking for my body, am i having something wrong? Am i having some health problem. I am not in professional field guy, and finally went for a consultation appointment with a doctor. Doctor said, " oh i see, nothing problem, don't worry about it, i give you some medicine, that would be fine soon". =.=''''' this is what we heard from doctor normally right? haha. Until today, i still can not feel any well and recovery from my body. But this is what my fortune which i have to gone through and i have to fight. haha. But do not worry woh, I am just getting tendon hurt due to over exercise. ^^ haha....But I am discussing something like very serious right? haha..... Don't worry, just small case nia. Just one of my poor is pessimistic thinking la ....haha ^^

Start from countdown's day until today, i never skip to take medicine. Does it a good year for me or a bad for me? I am tiring to challenge with god and fortune. But whatever "IT" give me, i will try to challenge and fight. ^^ So do you as well?

Anywhere, God will bless you guys and girls, i wish you all the best in this year. ^^ Just enjoy. ^^

One Hundred and Forty-Five

Happy New Year 2011. A new day with a new brand year within various hopes, different wishes, separated strategies, and colourful painted directions. Let make a wish together for this world, wish world would be peaceful and green forever. Definitely, I got to make a new wish for myself as well. ^^ erm...let me think about the new wish first. It gonna be something special that i never achieve before, and that must be something I never try before. haha. at the same time it must be something positive without any negative. I do not wish to have some bad think and do not wish to have some bad stuff. This is only my simplest wish. But have to depend on the fortune and luck. ^^

Happy new year 2011. just enjoy the special moment in your life. everything would be delighted by rainbow colour in your life. ^^

One Hundred and Thirty-Nine

Ouch! what an ever poor week in my beginning intern life. What the hell for my luck and fortune, i am getting sick 5 days long. I think i am gonna die soon and burial event is waiting me. Unfortunately, evil can not take me away from my life now. Because it Know that i am still gonna do a lot of things and duties in this world. It know that i am still have the time to complete all of those duties in this world and haven't reach the time to report myself at the hell. This world is still need me, it need me to develop the world, to develop myself even develop my endurance and whatever that i needed in my life. I am quite suffer while getting sick at the moment. I am always thinking and set in my mind. I am the one who strong enough in this world, unfortunately i was wrong, unfortunately i was made a wrong mindset.

What would make me says i was wrong mindset, I have my own reason to support that. But this is only from my personal view, not indicating all human are same as me as what i m thinking. Only the person who suffering then only they will feel the bitterness of suffer and the hardness of suffer. After pass across all of the suffering border, you will realize that the world not as worse as what you are thinking about. This is what i am always stick on my mind. This is what i am did wrong at the moment in my life. I need to make another thinking and mindset regarding of these experiences. One more chapter been learnt from this week. Although it is a short rapid chapter learning, but it is really enough for my life. I got to appreciate what i learnt and experienced during suffer period.

This meant that the sky still have some bright light from the sky but still limited to the light hole size which shooting on my brain land. I would like to try and observe some spaces in my brain to allow the bright light shooting on my brain land. ^^ It was just the first time i am offering these spaces for the bright light in my mind and brain. haha, quite stubborn thinking right. haha. That is me, that is Samkkap, that is Sam, that is Shayne Sam. All are still me "Yit Bin Samkkap" haha, all of my friends know that. haha....^^ By the way, i am appreciating the hands you giving me while i am needed regardless of sex, gender, age and etc. I am welcoming your helps and welcoming your concern. ^^ I will accept all the goods and regards that you sent to me in my life. ^^

Hereby, i need to thanks for my friend who help me a lot while i am suffering. Thank to my friend who help to take care of me while i am suffering at the moment of ill. Thank for my friend who are concerning me while i am suffering. I love you all. Thanks a lot and thank you very much.

Best Regards,
Yit Bin Samkkap ^^

One Hundred and Thirty-One

Please do not come towards me. I don't like you to come and find me and come and stick around me. I hate you, I damn hate you, don't you know that? don't you realize that? Please stay far away from me or stay where you are, may I kick u away or kick off you from me?

I try my best to live without you, I try my best to live without your concern, I try my best to live without your feeling. But finally, you come and find me again. Not only that, you stick me around for few days or even longer. I want to say NO to you. I want to say DON'T to you. I want to say PROHIBIT to you. Do you get me? You get what i means? Do you understand? I hope u do understand me, do understand my feeling, do understand my life.
PLEASE. >.< !!!

I don't want to says and discuss nonsenses here. Let's stop here by a big full stop. "0"

Hope my friends have a nice day. Enjoy your day.

One Hundred and Sixteen

Xmas month is here, delighted city with wonderful and fantastic lighting. Xmas trees are along main road. Light is bright and and flowing along the frame. Xmas trees are double up for a human lenght. Everybody anxiously to snapshotting, everybody is building their social network under the Xmas trees. The street is crowded with a human cloud. Some of them is dating there, some of them is have fun there, and some of them entertained with an Ipad.

Not only the street is decorated, all attractive places and destinations here also decorated by Xmas trees, presents, Santa Claus, and colorful lightning. I am listening to the Xmas track with the Xmas feel jotting down my feeling right here. This is my first time to engaged with the Xmas feeling and Xmas view in my life under a huge decorated Xmas tree. ^^

Most of the time is just a normal concept about Xmas which is Xmas tree, presents, and Santa Claus. Right after yesterday i realized i got to engaged with the feel of Xmas months and even i am not a Christian. Special days are boundary-less, everybody can celebrate it, everybody can feel the special feeling, and everybody can laugh under the Xmas trees.

I wish i could have a amazing Xmas night even i m not longer with this delighted wonderful fantastic city. I had made a wish under a Xmas tree. Wish all my friends have a wonderful celebration at the day of Xmas with their belove, wish all of my friends got a bright future career and study. ^^ The wish is dedicated to all my friend in my phone contact list, Facebook friend list, University friend list, social network contact list, and lastly my lovely special contact list ^^

Merry Christmas to you guys and girls. Remember to hang up a sock at your window, Santa Claus will visit your room and present you when Xmas Day. ^^
Have a nice day. Merry Christmas.^^

One Hundred and Twelve

Erm...excitement inside my flowing blood pulse and mind. Now is only waiting for time to reach the day of my trip with my "leng lui" coursemate in UUM. haha. They will depart from penang international airport bound for Johor Bahru on 6th december 2010 at early morning ...erm. will be sleepy that day i think. Because rarely wake up at the early morning. haha,,,,but is ok for me if i am excited with and interest with the activities and the trip. I am appreciate the happy moment with my friends, especially my good friends. ^^ even though it is a short trip with them. Singapore i am coming. ^^...haha,,,,

Excitement is something that hard to describe, measure, and acting out the reality to people. such the picture show there. what do think about the picture there? Does it contain any blue ingredient inside your thinking and mind as what normally people will think about ? haha....or does it just a normal art picture in your mind or thinking ? haha. that is what i wanna tell you here is that, excitement is hard to describe, measure, and acting out as what the meaning of this picture wanna bring to you. It's different among each human thinking about this picture. From my view, this picture is just a normal art picture, doesn't contain any blue ingredients of my thinking about this picture. Its depend on yourself how you describe the meaning of the picture here ....haha...

It is same with your personal life. Life is there, just depend on yourself how do you describe the meaning of your life in a casted landscape. Who do you want to live with, what do you want to live with, and where do you wish to live. You want to describe it as a beautiful life? Or you want to describe your life as a bad and poor life? All that are depend on yourselves.

How am I going to describe my life in a casted landscape? For sure i wish my life is beautiful and meaningful ever in short challenging world. haha. But all of my friend around me was told me that "dont know what you (me) are thinking about", " really hard to predict your (mine) mind thinking about". haha...^^ actually. nothing special among me and my friends. Just i wish to live within happiness without any regrets and sadness. Everything from my heart and mind is simplest. Don't ever try to make it complicated. That is, I am easy come easy go and open minded. I can accept whatever changing and challenging in my world. I would like to challenge and fight with every threatens come towards me. ^^ Because i believe every challenges is also an opportunity for me to get know in deep and something that i do not know and never know about myself in reality. ^^

Life is simple, don't make it complicated, try your best to simplified your life theories and methods. you will find and realized that, life is really simple and easy. When you simplified your life, at the same time you will gaining something special such the formula of your real life and happiness of your real life. I hope you are the one who make your life simple and easy .^^ Try your best and all the best to you .^^ have a nice day ...^^