Freedom 5

Everything is going down lately, Career, Health, Money, Relationship, Mood, and motivation as well. Maybe this is a procedure that human need to gone through, nobody can escape and skip. Sometime god will make people happy at the same time sad as well. But basically, happy is shorter than sad, depress is higher than relax, time to appreciate is shorter than lost. I must used to it, you should used to it as well. Haiz ,,, this is what we called life.

If i have a chance to choose before i am in this world, i wish i am not a human, i wish i am something that can fly. Just fly over wherever i can, just do whatever i am capable, even though it is a short time frame. But it is really good enough and more than enough for my life. What i am wishing is just simplest life. But it is impossible,impossible i have the chance to get that.

Fortune, fact, and luck were freeze and pasted on my life time frame like a teeth scar on skin. But i am not really understand when all that will come. When i am feel blur and unaware about those, I will totally give up to think all of these. Pretty poor.

Whatever comes to you (my friend), wish you all the best and dont ever try to give up as me now. Don't ever compare among me and you, we are different. ^^

Wish you have a nice day. Good night and sweet dream . ^^

Freedom 3

Just as usual as normal. Off from company with exhausted body and mood. I am driving with 70-80 km/h speed, hang up sunglasses on my eye, listens to 988 radio, waited fews traffic lights, turned several corners, up several level of garages, get into lift, press the number of my house, open the gate with key, get in to my room, turn on my computer, take shower, cooking oat, on my Facebook. And unfortunately i saw and read something bad news from my university on my dusty computer screen with title " Two died in an accident and one getting injuries in a crash in between the way from main entrance of University and EDC Hotel".

I am so sad to read this news from the net. Suddenly i was frighten and silent for few a second. Its just not more than 1 kilometer from the main entrance, the crash is happened in the middle of the main road at 7am something. It was so careless, missed directed and black screen turned on their eye in not more than 1 second. Just in a second, everything turned to black and into a blink mode. And unfortunately, they could not fight and escape from died god. What we can do is just pray in silent for them and hope they are Rest In Peace (R.I.P). Even thought i am not a friend of them, but they are one of my juniors in the same university. Wish you both Rest In Peace. Wish another getting well as soon as possible.

Thats what i always alert my friend when they are driving. Please drive carefully and don't ever drive without care. Because theres not only you alone is in the car,you must consider the rest who is inside the same saloon. You are responsible to make sure your friends are always safe. Because we do not know what happen in coming. Its just take not more than one second, the road can be turn into accident scene.

All of my friend, please take good care of yourself, please drive carefully and don't speed. Please think about your family. Please do pray in silent for them in 30 second. V.V (R.I.P)

Freedom 2

Its so complicated about this loop. Human between human, animal between human, animal between animal. Basically what we think is just about the relationship built between them and the feeling built between them, so that we can live with happiness together with all the friends in the loop. Share happiness and sadness together. This is what normally human looking for to make their life happy and great. I am just think this about one week ago, am i having these all things? Am i on the track of the loop? I keep think and think deep. I just realized that i am not on the track in that loop. I am out of that, i am been kick sometime.




What i can get from them actually is an empty box and bubble. I could not find anyone that i can share all of my sadness happiness. I been searching it for long start from the first words spoken out from my mouth until today. Its still a blank bubble and empty box. I dont want too much and never over about this, i just need to borrow your true heart and your true care during the time i am still alive. I will return to you at the moment when i am in coffin. I am always standby to borrow my heart and care to you all. Unfortunately, there is no requisition from me even-tough i am always standby and prepare for you all. I am disappointed and depress V.V . Exactly when i am offering you at the same time i need some return which equivalent to my offer. This is what we call that logic and tally to the theory. This is also what we call "human" need to get the equivalent from the logical and theoretical thinking and feeling. Besides, there is not any lying occur and allow. Otherwise, what will be happen next, let's think yourself.


As we always saying that, child moment is the best ever and never been occur again when you can think logically and theoretical. If have only this way to find and share the happiness and sadness as what we having at the child moment, i wish i can stay as a kid forever regardless what happening in the world. I wish to stay with smile forever, because i like to smile to sky, i like to smile to myself, but i do not know whether you like me to smile to you indeed. Because i do not know and understand what you are thinking about. Because we all still have some gap to link together what is inside the true heart and feeling.

Have a nice day, and enjoy your day. ^^

Freedom 1

Another stage of life is ON with green light. At the moment another stage of life in On with red. What does it means? I think you can guess what i am thinking about and what happening on me actually. Lets think logically and properly, you might sense the feel of me. I am dropping by sadness in this month physically and mentally. Almost exhaust with the amount energy that feeding in from my mouth. The equivalent is out and the standard is also run away. I need some times to fix them down.

At the moment of solving these trouble and problems, I hurt someone in my heart intensionally. I am failed to hit the goals that been set before, i am totally failed. I am feeling so sorry to who i hurt during my intentionally action and also my concerning. But i do never regret to try it out with my best effort to hit the goals, try my best effort to caring you indeed, try my best to boost up my concern. But what's the result is at the end of the targeted duration? The goals doesn't hit, the effort is tried out, the energy also exhausted. From these effort it should come out with a good colourful result, unfortunately the result is against from what the goals targeted.

I should look forward and you also have to look forward. I do wish you life with happy and greatness when u out of my cage. I will always smile when u smile to the sky. Sky will alert me when you getting cherish and smile to it. Remember what i having now is only for your lowest standard, you should push up your standard at the mean while u can get someone better than me and better than what i having now. But do remember don't try to compare and compete, just let it be nature and normal. Whatever from you should be nature, It will be fine when you can do these.

World is still beautiful, just we do not know how beautiful it is. We used to be live on the only earth, but we do not what it really want and need. One of the way to understand each other (earth and human) is put effort for well communication between us (earth and human). Earth is trying to understand human everyday to fulfill human need as providing Oxygen for human to breath, at the meanwhile what human trying to understand towards earth? The answer is pretty poor and bad. But for eventually view, human is trying best to understand the earth, but they understand in the wrong way and direction. Human is giving burden to earth by transferring more Ox2. Human is thinking this is what normal and used to be for the earth. But then this is what the earth do not want those. What our planet want is stated there just we try to ignore and deny to do what our planet want. I hope that i can live on another planet at the same time we can understand each other by giving what we want and need as usually our sense is known. Of course, I do wish you also can live on the right planet that you need and want before your thinking and flowing blood is boost up. Each human having different requirement along their life. Hope you can find the right one at the right time. Hope you can live with cherish and happy. What i wish most is that your life being delight with the right colour and amount. When you happy, that's the best things that you return to me. " You happy = That the only love i can give you" Wish you all the best. Remember live with cherish, Sky will alert me when you cherish up. ^u^.

Hereby i need to declare, all written paragraphs is only from personal view and decision not indicating any theory from any book and journal. Have a nice day and lets enjoy the day we having now. Cherish. ^^

One Hundred and Seventy-Three

Happy Chinese New Year. This year would be year of rabbit which is also my born year in 1987... More or less i am considering that i am in old category already. =.=''Anywhere, Old man got Old man's style and fashion ...haha

In Year of Rabbit 2011, I wish all of my fiend happy forever, love forever, rich forever, health forever, lucky forever, and smoothing in work forever. But i think nothing is forever la, this is what is in my mind, perhaps you have another of concepts. Nobody will know you, only you can know yourself. ^^

Back from penang on friday night 11pm and reach my hometown at 6am morning by driving a car. Damn tired with driving because spirit and energy is needed to focus on the road at the same time to ensure the trip is safe. There a bad new since i reached my hometown, non-stop raining made my small village flood. But luckily my home is at the safe area and din influence by the rain. ^^ raining here more than 2 days (48 hours) non-stop. =.=''

Start from yesterday, i am tired with homework such as preparing for reunion dinner ah, clean up the kitchen ah, and lastly enjoy the feeling with BBQ. haha.... i like new year feeling even these kind of stuff make me tired and exhausted. I had prepare 1 menu which including 11 dishes for reunion dinner start from yesterday. ^^ done a great job by alone. Thats why i am in tiring mood now.

Anywhere, Wish my friend all the best and "Gong Xi Fa Chai" Have a nice and great and good fortune year in 2011. ^^

One Hundred and Sixty-Nine

I like this so much ah, especially when start from 2.00 minutes....

One Hundred and Sixty-Three

Chilly with dark weather is what inside my heart. (V.V) I do not know why this would be inside my heart. Maybe i think too much and maybe i m over imagine, or maybe i am over concern. Am i doing the right thing at the right time at the right place? Am i did something wrong about myself? Am i suppose to do so? I do not know, i am lost and i am missing now. Anybody maybe could help me and direct me to the right way and track me back to my way. I do not know what i am doing right now.

Life is just same as the smog in the air, you can see it suddenly at the meanwhile it would be disappear in the air. It just a few second, you can realize the smog is away and disappear from your eye-frame. Its really only needs few seconds (FEW SECONDS). If you are forget or miss to grab the scene, what I can says is "Sorry", you miss the chance. What you can do is just waiting for the next smog cloud in the air. But do remember that the smog is not make by human, Its come from nature and come from the assigned list from the god. If you mist that, you have to wait for another few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years or even decades. We do not know when is the season for the plain smog would fly across. Only we can do is waiting, waiting, and keep waiting.

At the stage of waiting for the next plain smog to pass across, I make decides to make the decision. I will grab all the plain white smogs in the air, at the same time, I would like spray some colour up to the smogs in the air to make it more colourful, to make it more excited, to make it more pure and real. Thats what i am doing usually in my life. I am delighting my life with colourful spray. Only colour that can distinguish what are the plain colour it is at the smog and what it will be look like at the smog cloud. Each colour got their own meaning, the colour at the smog cloud painted is depend on yourself as what colour you want to put more, what colour you want to put less while at the final result that what you want that smog is look like from the different angles. I do painted the smog with seven colours same as the rainbow colour after rain. This is because of the colours that would make my short life great and fantastic. I am appreciating several colourful smog clouds at the air which still rolling on my hands. At the end of my life, how many of colourful smog clouds will hold and stay and how many of them will gone and disappear. I do not know and we do know when they will disappear and gone. So are you the one colourful smog who still rolling on my hands? Do think yourself whether you are the one that i would like to put the colour at the smog clouds in my life. Do think carefully and detail is that worth for me to pain it up the smog cloud with my seven colours. By the way, I am willing to pain it up with my colours if you are willing to hold there as where you are with honest and sincere.

What colour at the smog cloud is depends from which angles and eye-frame when you view that. Different human would be view in different colours at the same angles at the same cloud. But for me, It is almost the same even view from different angles, because all of them are important in my life. I do wish to make more colourful smog clouds as much as possible I can.

One Hundred and Fifty

Everybody is fighting with their performance, fighting with their result, fighting with their ambitions and etc. For sure fighting is the way to promote and perform yourself. This might be a proper and correct way to push you into a higher level in your performance stage. At the same time, this might also the wrong way to push you into higher level. It is depend on what would you like to think and how would you like to think and act about yourself regarding to self performance. ^^ This is very important.

Nothing free gift will fall on your top unless you challenge and fight for it. This is the only way to promote and sell yourself strength to others or competitors. No body will get free gift, except the bird shit which fall from the sky. haha...^^. I am always holding some theories and concepts which might lead you to think that i am kinda stubborn of selves thinking. But it is the real and fact of life. We supposed to act and behave so, at the same time you might refuse to behave so. And what would you get is "BAD" and "ZERO". ^^ Believe my nonsenses, this is real and fact. Do keep in your mind and remind yourself. Otherwise you will only stay the place where you are as the old big tree beside the road. haha......

I did a great challenge in my life. I did it well and i am satisfied with the result from fight, Its worth. ^^ I think there is no problem for coming challenge and task. I still keep the same theories and concepts for another half of my life. I do believe someday later i might independent, I do believe someday later I might hit what I am targeting. ^^ Just the time is short, I do not know which target that will hit by my leg first. haha.... As we known, "LIFE IS SHORT" just do whatever you wish to do, just fight whatever you want to fight, and just challenge whatever you wish to challenge with. Let's live without any regret in your short life. But please do appreciate whatever chances and opportunities which freezing in front of your eye regardless which area or field it is, at the same time do appreciate for your love one which would always missed you before fall sleep but you do not know and do not realize that your love one is missing you before fall asleep. Keep in mind, "APPRECIATE" whatever you having now. Do not complaint about fate, but treasure your living. There are not always chances and opportunities will stick with you, just catch the short chances and opportunities fly across you. ^^ After caught, then only you will realize it is worth for your scarified while holding the chances and opportunities on your hand, even it is though and shape while in the process, in the mean while you might think to give up. Please do not give up anything even is though enough. Please do try your best to achieve and fix with it. You will only feel the sweetness after bitterness in the process. ^^

Wah, so much nonsenses from me, unbelievable. haha....anywhere, I wish you all the best and try to catch what i wanna bring to you. You might deny and ignore my personal recommends and nonsenses. By the way, this is only my personal stubborn view. ^^ hehe..... Good luck. ^^

One Hundred and Forty-Nine

Everybody do make wish for their new brand year for their life. This become nature and normal, everybody will do so for a new opened daily of a new coming year. Have you do some wishes for yourself and for who you concerning? Or do make wishes on behalf of somebody? Whatever wishes and hopes you made, here i am praying for you to realize everything your are wishing and hoping in your life. Because i wish all of my friend would be health and happy forever. I would like to see you in well condition when i meet you up someday. In fact of wish all of my friend all the best and healthy always. Definitely, i do have some wishes and hopes in this year which is year 2011. I can share what wishes and hopes for myself. ^^
1. I wish my family and sibling health forever and belong to me forever.
2. I wish all my special friends, important friends and normal friends health forever and all the best. This year would be your year, would be good fortune year. ^^
3. I wish myself always in good condition regarding to health issue.
4. I hope i can get something special that i never gain before in my life.
5. I hope i will love you guys and girls forever during my life, unless i get leave this world earlier than you.

7 Jan 2011. I am in good condition not meaning that i will in good condition as well in coming future time and days. ^^ This is only my personal feeling and this is my pessimistic of my thinking and view. This is the truth and the process that should go through and this thinking is in -ve way instead of console human in a +ve thinking way. I can accept whatever challenges and fortune comes to me. I do try to challenge and fight with them. This only human life. ^^

I accepted one new bad fortune in this year. Just few days ago in 2011, I feel something bad and poor that might kill me due to my health problem. I did checking for my body, am i having something wrong? Am i having some health problem. I am not in professional field guy, and finally went for a consultation appointment with a doctor. Doctor said, " oh i see, nothing problem, don't worry about it, i give you some medicine, that would be fine soon". =.=''''' this is what we heard from doctor normally right? haha. Until today, i still can not feel any well and recovery from my body. But this is what my fortune which i have to gone through and i have to fight. haha. But do not worry woh, I am just getting tendon hurt due to over exercise. ^^ haha....But I am discussing something like very serious right? haha..... Don't worry, just small case nia. Just one of my poor is pessimistic thinking la ....haha ^^

Start from countdown's day until today, i never skip to take medicine. Does it a good year for me or a bad for me? I am tiring to challenge with god and fortune. But whatever "IT" give me, i will try to challenge and fight. ^^ So do you as well?

Anywhere, God will bless you guys and girls, i wish you all the best in this year. ^^ Just enjoy. ^^

One Hundred and Forty-Five

Happy New Year 2011. A new day with a new brand year within various hopes, different wishes, separated strategies, and colourful painted directions. Let make a wish together for this world, wish world would be peaceful and green forever. Definitely, I got to make a new wish for myself as well. ^^ erm...let me think about the new wish first. It gonna be something special that i never achieve before, and that must be something I never try before. haha. at the same time it must be something positive without any negative. I do not wish to have some bad think and do not wish to have some bad stuff. This is only my simplest wish. But have to depend on the fortune and luck. ^^

Happy new year 2011. just enjoy the special moment in your life. everything would be delighted by rainbow colour in your life. ^^