Freedom 10

Its another weekend. ^^ Suppose should browsing and looking for fun enjoy at the bright night.
Pretty poor body getting weak and getting sick. >.<
I do not like the feeling of sick, I do not like the pain of sick. >.<
When everything comes to "Do Not Like", bad mode and down feeling definitely will covered of your heart precisely.
That is why i am posting my bad feeling and poor mode in my blog.
My blog is purposely for me to talk with when i wish to share my happiness, to release the stress and tension whenever the brain is getting tight, to spit out my uncomforted feeling from my heart when my heart beat and blood is triggered. Because i do not have a good buddy to share and chat with. V.V

I still can remember few days ago, there is a conversation between me and my best friend. I agreed what she said, instead i still have my own point to support myself. ^^. Lets see the conversation below.

Friend: Samkkap, you din update your blog lately hor? so busy mey?
Samkkap: Ya ah, very busy ah, and no mood to post anything ma no update lo.^^
Friend: Ya mey? haha . But your posts inside your blog almost the same. all posts is -ve one.
Samkkap: Of Course la, because the purpose of my blog is to release my bad mood, stress and uncomforted feeling ah. thats why all post is looking similar and -ve one ah.
Friend: Ya lo, No wonder all are same nia. haha everything is pessimistic thinking.
Samkkap: Ya ah, When having bad mood and nobody can to chat with, so ma post everything into my blog lo . but not all is pessimistic thinking la, also sharing my happiness ma.. not mey ?
Friend: ya la ...but -ve is more than +ve.
Samkkap: ya mey? haha . i dont know ah . haha. maybe this is my style ah . haha .

The conclusion is, whenever bad mode and down mode from my heart or else maybe i wish to sharing my happiness, then I will comes to my blog. Its become a life routine. I do not know whether it is good or what. haha ...

I do not wish my life being routine as now, not only me, everybody also having the same thinking maybe. Whenever poor happening and then comes to blog and posting. I do wish it could be changed to another style which whenever poor happening then i might talk and confess to someone. But its still a blank in my life, thats why i m still posting my feeling here. ^^ ... haha.but i think this routine as posting whenever poor happen would last for few years or maybe last forever. Thats why i am saying thats still a blank... haha . Its really not easy to find an exact and match one and it would spending time. ^^ ,,,So, maybe when tiring on that i will totally give up and give up ... ^^ . haha ....

sometime when i saying so is because of the loneliness la . when you become alone, your brain will keep move and working to make think a lot. whatever will appear in your mind. But i believe -ve is much more than +ve. So in order dont allow ur brain keep move and working to think, dont try to become alone.. haha . go and date your (friends) partner and friend. Then the world would floating with the symbols of happiness in the air. ^^ i do wish to see all happiness sign floating in the air. I do wish to share the happiness you guys having.

All above are only my personal view and point. ^^ enjoy your weekend. have a nice day and weekend. ^^ .Samkkap copy right.

Freedom 9

Another weekend. ^^

Freedom 8

WeekEND again, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, not far away soon, i m going to graduate very soon. ^^ i think i will enjoy the moment when the graduation.. haha.. hope that coming days same with what i m thinking now . ^^.

Another weekend, another relax. normally when i m relaxing for sure i m damn lazy to do anything^^. i just wanted to do whatever i like and whatever i wish to do in my list. haha . definitely eat, sleep, online, walk around, and etc lo . haha. I do wish to do all of things that i like only. other than that please dont comes to me .^^ but i have a bad behave so called when i m alone and nobody around me, i will keep thinking something, whatever i can think, luckily for this lonely weekend i m missing my home V.V . when i did post my feeling on Fb, people around me will ask some good question towards me . my friends around me always said and asked that " why do you so moody ? why do you so emo?" haha ... kinda such good questions from my friends.... when i heard these kind of questions, there is already one answer from my beating heart. ^^ the answer is " you do not understand me ". haha.... "you do not understand the people who stay far away from their lovely home" i can give u all these answer is because you all is staying at your own lovely home, you wont feel the loneliness and you wont get the feel of thinking and missing them because you can see them everyday every second. ^^ believe me you wont feeling it, even though some will feeling annoy with them . ^^ am i right ? haha ...This is only my personal view ah . ^^ you might not in this category. Please do not keep my words in your mind. ^^ I just wanna to declare and let's you all know what i m thinking and feeling when i am in so called "moody" and "emo" ... haha . These kind of things is uncontrollably as i m not a genius for the mentality control. haha . only the people who feel that they can control meaning that they are genius in that particular arena. haha .

I am not so sure is it whether will happen to you. For myself, Loneliness can push you up to the top of the happiness whenever you are feeling like you wanted to be alone, whenever you wanted to enjoy the lonely moment, meanwhile loneliness can also pull you down to the bottom of the sadness whenever you are feeling like thinking and missing somebody there from your heard. haha ...pretty poor right ? haha ... here's to share something from my post in FB. ^^

here is the statement -->
"I missing home now =.='''''is it because of the loneliness?"
here are the comments -->
" That one should ask you self, no one can answer for you",
"Yit Bin SamkKap: i ask jor . but still dun noe y i m missing now ah . =.=! mayb long time din back home jor ah",
"You also know to say long time didn't back, then of Cz you should back your home",
"Yit Bin SamkKap: haha .....not easy to back ah ....",
"sure you will miss lo~~ you're the one nvr meet any of your family member since CNY leh~~ me & XXX cn go auntie house, XXX can back home, just you alone stay at home".

Haha, i m just sharing, do not have any critical point. hope you all do not mind for my sharing retrieved from my FB. ^^ for sure i have to apologizes if i made you feeling uncomfortable for my sharing retrieved from my personal FB. ^^ Sorry if you mind in it. ^^

All statements above is only my personal feeling and characteristic does not represent all statement of you. samkkap copy right . ^^ Have a nice day and enjoy your day. Dont waste your relax weekend and time. ^^

Freedom 7

This is my life, my life is easy and simple ever. Never care who you are, as long as you good then i good. Nothing much to care. I am only care one thing is honest and sincere from you all. If you are sincere, In return i will honest. At the same time, when you honest and i will be the sincere one. Life is easy and short. Let's enjoy and appreciate. True, honest and sincerely friend is not easy to find. You can counted by your finger and wont ever access your ten singers. But several fingers is counted, there is not more than five. ^^ I think it is good enough for my life. It is better ever for me in my life. ^^

This is only my personal view might not represent the stand of you. ^^
Samkkap copy right . ^^

Freedom 6

Don't know what my feeling now. Everything i can manage well and perfectly, but i am absolutely loser in relationship.
No matter friendship or personal relationship, all failed. Some time i will feel guilty about my emotional (EQ) and also my annoy bring around my friend. But i do not wish so actually, because i am really a loser in this kinda things. Apologize for you all if any annoy and emo bring to you before or currently. Really SORRY for you.

Have a nice day.

Freedom 5

It's one of my products definitely produced by me. You may click to enlarge the image for nicer view. ^^ I wish to organize an event with title "Sexy Summer Beach". This event is purposely design for 2007 intake for Bachelor of Technology Management (Honors) course mate. It's just in planning stage and unknown status for the planning. Haha. But i had come out with a overall proposal for the event. But no committee is form yet. Everything is unknown and blank. Just wanna share my poster. ^^ Let's enjoy and comment if you are willing to do so. My pleasure to see your comments. ^^

Have a nice day.

Freedom 5

Everything is going down lately, Career, Health, Money, Relationship, Mood, and motivation as well. Maybe this is a procedure that human need to gone through, nobody can escape and skip. Sometime god will make people happy at the same time sad as well. But basically, happy is shorter than sad, depress is higher than relax, time to appreciate is shorter than lost. I must used to it, you should used to it as well. Haiz ,,, this is what we called life.

If i have a chance to choose before i am in this world, i wish i am not a human, i wish i am something that can fly. Just fly over wherever i can, just do whatever i am capable, even though it is a short time frame. But it is really good enough and more than enough for my life. What i am wishing is just simplest life. But it is impossible,impossible i have the chance to get that.

Fortune, fact, and luck were freeze and pasted on my life time frame like a teeth scar on skin. But i am not really understand when all that will come. When i am feel blur and unaware about those, I will totally give up to think all of these. Pretty poor.

Whatever comes to you (my friend), wish you all the best and dont ever try to give up as me now. Don't ever compare among me and you, we are different. ^^

Wish you have a nice day. Good night and sweet dream . ^^

Freedom 3

Just as usual as normal. Off from company with exhausted body and mood. I am driving with 70-80 km/h speed, hang up sunglasses on my eye, listens to 988 radio, waited fews traffic lights, turned several corners, up several level of garages, get into lift, press the number of my house, open the gate with key, get in to my room, turn on my computer, take shower, cooking oat, on my Facebook. And unfortunately i saw and read something bad news from my university on my dusty computer screen with title " Two died in an accident and one getting injuries in a crash in between the way from main entrance of University and EDC Hotel".

I am so sad to read this news from the net. Suddenly i was frighten and silent for few a second. Its just not more than 1 kilometer from the main entrance, the crash is happened in the middle of the main road at 7am something. It was so careless, missed directed and black screen turned on their eye in not more than 1 second. Just in a second, everything turned to black and into a blink mode. And unfortunately, they could not fight and escape from died god. What we can do is just pray in silent for them and hope they are Rest In Peace (R.I.P). Even thought i am not a friend of them, but they are one of my juniors in the same university. Wish you both Rest In Peace. Wish another getting well as soon as possible.

Thats what i always alert my friend when they are driving. Please drive carefully and don't ever drive without care. Because theres not only you alone is in the car,you must consider the rest who is inside the same saloon. You are responsible to make sure your friends are always safe. Because we do not know what happen in coming. Its just take not more than one second, the road can be turn into accident scene.

All of my friend, please take good care of yourself, please drive carefully and don't speed. Please think about your family. Please do pray in silent for them in 30 second. V.V (R.I.P)

Freedom 2

Its so complicated about this loop. Human between human, animal between human, animal between animal. Basically what we think is just about the relationship built between them and the feeling built between them, so that we can live with happiness together with all the friends in the loop. Share happiness and sadness together. This is what normally human looking for to make their life happy and great. I am just think this about one week ago, am i having these all things? Am i on the track of the loop? I keep think and think deep. I just realized that i am not on the track in that loop. I am out of that, i am been kick sometime.




What i can get from them actually is an empty box and bubble. I could not find anyone that i can share all of my sadness happiness. I been searching it for long start from the first words spoken out from my mouth until today. Its still a blank bubble and empty box. I dont want too much and never over about this, i just need to borrow your true heart and your true care during the time i am still alive. I will return to you at the moment when i am in coffin. I am always standby to borrow my heart and care to you all. Unfortunately, there is no requisition from me even-tough i am always standby and prepare for you all. I am disappointed and depress V.V . Exactly when i am offering you at the same time i need some return which equivalent to my offer. This is what we call that logic and tally to the theory. This is also what we call "human" need to get the equivalent from the logical and theoretical thinking and feeling. Besides, there is not any lying occur and allow. Otherwise, what will be happen next, let's think yourself.


As we always saying that, child moment is the best ever and never been occur again when you can think logically and theoretical. If have only this way to find and share the happiness and sadness as what we having at the child moment, i wish i can stay as a kid forever regardless what happening in the world. I wish to stay with smile forever, because i like to smile to sky, i like to smile to myself, but i do not know whether you like me to smile to you indeed. Because i do not know and understand what you are thinking about. Because we all still have some gap to link together what is inside the true heart and feeling.

Have a nice day, and enjoy your day. ^^

Freedom 1

Another stage of life is ON with green light. At the moment another stage of life in On with red. What does it means? I think you can guess what i am thinking about and what happening on me actually. Lets think logically and properly, you might sense the feel of me. I am dropping by sadness in this month physically and mentally. Almost exhaust with the amount energy that feeding in from my mouth. The equivalent is out and the standard is also run away. I need some times to fix them down.

At the moment of solving these trouble and problems, I hurt someone in my heart intensionally. I am failed to hit the goals that been set before, i am totally failed. I am feeling so sorry to who i hurt during my intentionally action and also my concerning. But i do never regret to try it out with my best effort to hit the goals, try my best effort to caring you indeed, try my best to boost up my concern. But what's the result is at the end of the targeted duration? The goals doesn't hit, the effort is tried out, the energy also exhausted. From these effort it should come out with a good colourful result, unfortunately the result is against from what the goals targeted.

I should look forward and you also have to look forward. I do wish you life with happy and greatness when u out of my cage. I will always smile when u smile to the sky. Sky will alert me when you getting cherish and smile to it. Remember what i having now is only for your lowest standard, you should push up your standard at the mean while u can get someone better than me and better than what i having now. But do remember don't try to compare and compete, just let it be nature and normal. Whatever from you should be nature, It will be fine when you can do these.

World is still beautiful, just we do not know how beautiful it is. We used to be live on the only earth, but we do not what it really want and need. One of the way to understand each other (earth and human) is put effort for well communication between us (earth and human). Earth is trying to understand human everyday to fulfill human need as providing Oxygen for human to breath, at the meanwhile what human trying to understand towards earth? The answer is pretty poor and bad. But for eventually view, human is trying best to understand the earth, but they understand in the wrong way and direction. Human is giving burden to earth by transferring more Ox2. Human is thinking this is what normal and used to be for the earth. But then this is what the earth do not want those. What our planet want is stated there just we try to ignore and deny to do what our planet want. I hope that i can live on another planet at the same time we can understand each other by giving what we want and need as usually our sense is known. Of course, I do wish you also can live on the right planet that you need and want before your thinking and flowing blood is boost up. Each human having different requirement along their life. Hope you can find the right one at the right time. Hope you can live with cherish and happy. What i wish most is that your life being delight with the right colour and amount. When you happy, that's the best things that you return to me. " You happy = That the only love i can give you" Wish you all the best. Remember live with cherish, Sky will alert me when you cherish up. ^u^.

Hereby i need to declare, all written paragraphs is only from personal view and decision not indicating any theory from any book and journal. Have a nice day and lets enjoy the day we having now. Cherish. ^^