One Hundred and Thirty-Nine

Ouch! what an ever poor week in my beginning intern life. What the hell for my luck and fortune, i am getting sick 5 days long. I think i am gonna die soon and burial event is waiting me. Unfortunately, evil can not take me away from my life now. Because it Know that i am still gonna do a lot of things and duties in this world. It know that i am still have the time to complete all of those duties in this world and haven't reach the time to report myself at the hell. This world is still need me, it need me to develop the world, to develop myself even develop my endurance and whatever that i needed in my life. I am quite suffer while getting sick at the moment. I am always thinking and set in my mind. I am the one who strong enough in this world, unfortunately i was wrong, unfortunately i was made a wrong mindset.

What would make me says i was wrong mindset, I have my own reason to support that. But this is only from my personal view, not indicating all human are same as me as what i m thinking. Only the person who suffering then only they will feel the bitterness of suffer and the hardness of suffer. After pass across all of the suffering border, you will realize that the world not as worse as what you are thinking about. This is what i am always stick on my mind. This is what i am did wrong at the moment in my life. I need to make another thinking and mindset regarding of these experiences. One more chapter been learnt from this week. Although it is a short rapid chapter learning, but it is really enough for my life. I got to appreciate what i learnt and experienced during suffer period.

This meant that the sky still have some bright light from the sky but still limited to the light hole size which shooting on my brain land. I would like to try and observe some spaces in my brain to allow the bright light shooting on my brain land. ^^ It was just the first time i am offering these spaces for the bright light in my mind and brain. haha, quite stubborn thinking right. haha. That is me, that is Samkkap, that is Sam, that is Shayne Sam. All are still me "Yit Bin Samkkap" haha, all of my friends know that. haha....^^ By the way, i am appreciating the hands you giving me while i am needed regardless of sex, gender, age and etc. I am welcoming your helps and welcoming your concern. ^^ I will accept all the goods and regards that you sent to me in my life. ^^

Hereby, i need to thanks for my friend who help me a lot while i am suffering. Thank to my friend who help to take care of me while i am suffering at the moment of ill. Thank for my friend who are concerning me while i am suffering. I love you all. Thanks a lot and thank you very much.

Best Regards,
Yit Bin Samkkap ^^

One Hundred and Thirty-One

Please do not come towards me. I don't like you to come and find me and come and stick around me. I hate you, I damn hate you, don't you know that? don't you realize that? Please stay far away from me or stay where you are, may I kick u away or kick off you from me?

I try my best to live without you, I try my best to live without your concern, I try my best to live without your feeling. But finally, you come and find me again. Not only that, you stick me around for few days or even longer. I want to say NO to you. I want to say DON'T to you. I want to say PROHIBIT to you. Do you get me? You get what i means? Do you understand? I hope u do understand me, do understand my feeling, do understand my life.
PLEASE. >.< !!!

I don't want to says and discuss nonsenses here. Let's stop here by a big full stop. "0"

Hope my friends have a nice day. Enjoy your day.

One Hundred and Sixteen

Xmas month is here, delighted city with wonderful and fantastic lighting. Xmas trees are along main road. Light is bright and and flowing along the frame. Xmas trees are double up for a human lenght. Everybody anxiously to snapshotting, everybody is building their social network under the Xmas trees. The street is crowded with a human cloud. Some of them is dating there, some of them is have fun there, and some of them entertained with an Ipad.

Not only the street is decorated, all attractive places and destinations here also decorated by Xmas trees, presents, Santa Claus, and colorful lightning. I am listening to the Xmas track with the Xmas feel jotting down my feeling right here. This is my first time to engaged with the Xmas feeling and Xmas view in my life under a huge decorated Xmas tree. ^^

Most of the time is just a normal concept about Xmas which is Xmas tree, presents, and Santa Claus. Right after yesterday i realized i got to engaged with the feel of Xmas months and even i am not a Christian. Special days are boundary-less, everybody can celebrate it, everybody can feel the special feeling, and everybody can laugh under the Xmas trees.

I wish i could have a amazing Xmas night even i m not longer with this delighted wonderful fantastic city. I had made a wish under a Xmas tree. Wish all my friends have a wonderful celebration at the day of Xmas with their belove, wish all of my friends got a bright future career and study. ^^ The wish is dedicated to all my friend in my phone contact list, Facebook friend list, University friend list, social network contact list, and lastly my lovely special contact list ^^

Merry Christmas to you guys and girls. Remember to hang up a sock at your window, Santa Claus will visit your room and present you when Xmas Day. ^^
Have a nice day. Merry Christmas.^^

One Hundred and Twelve

Erm...excitement inside my flowing blood pulse and mind. Now is only waiting for time to reach the day of my trip with my "leng lui" coursemate in UUM. haha. They will depart from penang international airport bound for Johor Bahru on 6th december 2010 at early morning ...erm. will be sleepy that day i think. Because rarely wake up at the early morning. haha,,,,but is ok for me if i am excited with and interest with the activities and the trip. I am appreciate the happy moment with my friends, especially my good friends. ^^ even though it is a short trip with them. Singapore i am coming. ^^...haha,,,,

Excitement is something that hard to describe, measure, and acting out the reality to people. such the picture show there. what do think about the picture there? Does it contain any blue ingredient inside your thinking and mind as what normally people will think about ? haha....or does it just a normal art picture in your mind or thinking ? haha. that is what i wanna tell you here is that, excitement is hard to describe, measure, and acting out as what the meaning of this picture wanna bring to you. It's different among each human thinking about this picture. From my view, this picture is just a normal art picture, doesn't contain any blue ingredients of my thinking about this picture. Its depend on yourself how you describe the meaning of the picture here ....haha...

It is same with your personal life. Life is there, just depend on yourself how do you describe the meaning of your life in a casted landscape. Who do you want to live with, what do you want to live with, and where do you wish to live. You want to describe it as a beautiful life? Or you want to describe your life as a bad and poor life? All that are depend on yourselves.

How am I going to describe my life in a casted landscape? For sure i wish my life is beautiful and meaningful ever in short challenging world. haha. But all of my friend around me was told me that "dont know what you (me) are thinking about", " really hard to predict your (mine) mind thinking about". haha...^^ actually. nothing special among me and my friends. Just i wish to live within happiness without any regrets and sadness. Everything from my heart and mind is simplest. Don't ever try to make it complicated. That is, I am easy come easy go and open minded. I can accept whatever changing and challenging in my world. I would like to challenge and fight with every threatens come towards me. ^^ Because i believe every challenges is also an opportunity for me to get know in deep and something that i do not know and never know about myself in reality. ^^

Life is simple, don't make it complicated, try your best to simplified your life theories and methods. you will find and realized that, life is really simple and easy. When you simplified your life, at the same time you will gaining something special such the formula of your real life and happiness of your real life. I hope you are the one who make your life simple and easy .^^ Try your best and all the best to you .^^ have a nice day ...^^