Freedom 3

Just as usual as normal. Off from company with exhausted body and mood. I am driving with 70-80 km/h speed, hang up sunglasses on my eye, listens to 988 radio, waited fews traffic lights, turned several corners, up several level of garages, get into lift, press the number of my house, open the gate with key, get in to my room, turn on my computer, take shower, cooking oat, on my Facebook. And unfortunately i saw and read something bad news from my university on my dusty computer screen with title " Two died in an accident and one getting injuries in a crash in between the way from main entrance of University and EDC Hotel".

I am so sad to read this news from the net. Suddenly i was frighten and silent for few a second. Its just not more than 1 kilometer from the main entrance, the crash is happened in the middle of the main road at 7am something. It was so careless, missed directed and black screen turned on their eye in not more than 1 second. Just in a second, everything turned to black and into a blink mode. And unfortunately, they could not fight and escape from died god. What we can do is just pray in silent for them and hope they are Rest In Peace (R.I.P). Even thought i am not a friend of them, but they are one of my juniors in the same university. Wish you both Rest In Peace. Wish another getting well as soon as possible.

Thats what i always alert my friend when they are driving. Please drive carefully and don't ever drive without care. Because theres not only you alone is in the car,you must consider the rest who is inside the same saloon. You are responsible to make sure your friends are always safe. Because we do not know what happen in coming. Its just take not more than one second, the road can be turn into accident scene.

All of my friend, please take good care of yourself, please drive carefully and don't speed. Please think about your family. Please do pray in silent for them in 30 second. V.V (R.I.P)

Freedom 2

Its so complicated about this loop. Human between human, animal between human, animal between animal. Basically what we think is just about the relationship built between them and the feeling built between them, so that we can live with happiness together with all the friends in the loop. Share happiness and sadness together. This is what normally human looking for to make their life happy and great. I am just think this about one week ago, am i having these all things? Am i on the track of the loop? I keep think and think deep. I just realized that i am not on the track in that loop. I am out of that, i am been kick sometime.




What i can get from them actually is an empty box and bubble. I could not find anyone that i can share all of my sadness happiness. I been searching it for long start from the first words spoken out from my mouth until today. Its still a blank bubble and empty box. I dont want too much and never over about this, i just need to borrow your true heart and your true care during the time i am still alive. I will return to you at the moment when i am in coffin. I am always standby to borrow my heart and care to you all. Unfortunately, there is no requisition from me even-tough i am always standby and prepare for you all. I am disappointed and depress V.V . Exactly when i am offering you at the same time i need some return which equivalent to my offer. This is what we call that logic and tally to the theory. This is also what we call "human" need to get the equivalent from the logical and theoretical thinking and feeling. Besides, there is not any lying occur and allow. Otherwise, what will be happen next, let's think yourself.


As we always saying that, child moment is the best ever and never been occur again when you can think logically and theoretical. If have only this way to find and share the happiness and sadness as what we having at the child moment, i wish i can stay as a kid forever regardless what happening in the world. I wish to stay with smile forever, because i like to smile to sky, i like to smile to myself, but i do not know whether you like me to smile to you indeed. Because i do not know and understand what you are thinking about. Because we all still have some gap to link together what is inside the true heart and feeling.

Have a nice day, and enjoy your day. ^^

Freedom 1

Another stage of life is ON with green light. At the moment another stage of life in On with red. What does it means? I think you can guess what i am thinking about and what happening on me actually. Lets think logically and properly, you might sense the feel of me. I am dropping by sadness in this month physically and mentally. Almost exhaust with the amount energy that feeding in from my mouth. The equivalent is out and the standard is also run away. I need some times to fix them down.

At the moment of solving these trouble and problems, I hurt someone in my heart intensionally. I am failed to hit the goals that been set before, i am totally failed. I am feeling so sorry to who i hurt during my intentionally action and also my concerning. But i do never regret to try it out with my best effort to hit the goals, try my best effort to caring you indeed, try my best to boost up my concern. But what's the result is at the end of the targeted duration? The goals doesn't hit, the effort is tried out, the energy also exhausted. From these effort it should come out with a good colourful result, unfortunately the result is against from what the goals targeted.

I should look forward and you also have to look forward. I do wish you life with happy and greatness when u out of my cage. I will always smile when u smile to the sky. Sky will alert me when you getting cherish and smile to it. Remember what i having now is only for your lowest standard, you should push up your standard at the mean while u can get someone better than me and better than what i having now. But do remember don't try to compare and compete, just let it be nature and normal. Whatever from you should be nature, It will be fine when you can do these.

World is still beautiful, just we do not know how beautiful it is. We used to be live on the only earth, but we do not what it really want and need. One of the way to understand each other (earth and human) is put effort for well communication between us (earth and human). Earth is trying to understand human everyday to fulfill human need as providing Oxygen for human to breath, at the meanwhile what human trying to understand towards earth? The answer is pretty poor and bad. But for eventually view, human is trying best to understand the earth, but they understand in the wrong way and direction. Human is giving burden to earth by transferring more Ox2. Human is thinking this is what normal and used to be for the earth. But then this is what the earth do not want those. What our planet want is stated there just we try to ignore and deny to do what our planet want. I hope that i can live on another planet at the same time we can understand each other by giving what we want and need as usually our sense is known. Of course, I do wish you also can live on the right planet that you need and want before your thinking and flowing blood is boost up. Each human having different requirement along their life. Hope you can find the right one at the right time. Hope you can live with cherish and happy. What i wish most is that your life being delight with the right colour and amount. When you happy, that's the best things that you return to me. " You happy = That the only love i can give you" Wish you all the best. Remember live with cherish, Sky will alert me when you cherish up. ^u^.

Hereby i need to declare, all written paragraphs is only from personal view and decision not indicating any theory from any book and journal. Have a nice day and lets enjoy the day we having now. Cherish. ^^

One Hundred and Seventy-Three

Happy Chinese New Year. This year would be year of rabbit which is also my born year in 1987... More or less i am considering that i am in old category already. =.=''Anywhere, Old man got Old man's style and fashion ...haha

In Year of Rabbit 2011, I wish all of my fiend happy forever, love forever, rich forever, health forever, lucky forever, and smoothing in work forever. But i think nothing is forever la, this is what is in my mind, perhaps you have another of concepts. Nobody will know you, only you can know yourself. ^^

Back from penang on friday night 11pm and reach my hometown at 6am morning by driving a car. Damn tired with driving because spirit and energy is needed to focus on the road at the same time to ensure the trip is safe. There a bad new since i reached my hometown, non-stop raining made my small village flood. But luckily my home is at the safe area and din influence by the rain. ^^ raining here more than 2 days (48 hours) non-stop. =.=''

Start from yesterday, i am tired with homework such as preparing for reunion dinner ah, clean up the kitchen ah, and lastly enjoy the feeling with BBQ. haha.... i like new year feeling even these kind of stuff make me tired and exhausted. I had prepare 1 menu which including 11 dishes for reunion dinner start from yesterday. ^^ done a great job by alone. Thats why i am in tiring mood now.

Anywhere, Wish my friend all the best and "Gong Xi Fa Chai" Have a nice and great and good fortune year in 2011. ^^