One Hundred and Sixty-Three
Chilly with dark weather is what inside my heart. (V.V) I do not know why this would be inside my heart. Maybe i think too much and maybe i m over imagine, or maybe i am over concern. Am i doing the right thing at the right time at the right place? Am i did something wrong about myself? Am i suppose to do so? I do not know, i am lost and i am missing now. Anybody maybe could help me and direct me to the right way and track me back to my way. I do not know what i am doing right now. Life is just same as the smog in the air, you can see it suddenly at the meanwhile it would be disappear in the air. It just a few second, you can realize the smog is away and disappear from your eye-frame. Its really only needs few seconds (FEW SECONDS). If you are forget or miss to grab the scene, what I can says is "Sorry", you miss the chance. What you can do is just waiting for the next smog cloud in the air. But do remember that the smog is not make by human, Its come from nature and come from the assigned list from the god. If you mist that, you have to wait for another few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years or even decades. We do not know when is the season for the plain smog would fly across. Only we can do is waiting, waiting, and keep waiting.
At the stage of waiting for the next plain smog to pass across, I make decides to make the decision. I will grab all the plain white smogs in the air, at the same time, I would like spray some colour up to the smogs in the air to make it more colourful, to make it more excited, to make it more pure and real. Thats what i am doing usually in my life. I am delighting my life with colourful spray. Only colour that can distinguish what are the plain colour it is at the smog and what it will be look like at the smog cloud. Each colour got their own meaning, the colour at the smog cloud painted is depend on yourself as what colour you want to put more, what colour you want to put less while at the final result that what you want that smog is look like from the different angles. I do painted the smog with seven colours same as the rainbow colour after rain. This is because of the colours that would make my short life great and fantastic. I am appreciating several colourful smog clouds at the air which still rolling on my hands. At the end of my life, how many of colourful smog clouds will hold and stay and how many of them will gone and disappear. I do not know and we do know when they will disappear and gone. So are you the one colourful smog who still rolling on my hands? Do think yourself whether you are the one that i would like to put the colour at the smog clouds in my life. Do think carefully and detail is that worth for me to pain it up the smog cloud with my seven colours. By the way, I am willing to pain it up with my colours if you are willing to hold there as where you are with honest and sincere.
What colour at the smog cloud is depends from which angles and eye-frame when you view that. Different human would be view in different colours at the same angles at the same cloud. But for me, It is almost the same even view from different angles, because all of them are important in my life. I do wish to make more colourful smog clouds as much as possible I can.
One Hundred and Fifty
Everybody is fighting with their performance, fighting with their result, fighting with their ambitions and etc. For sure fighting is the way to promote and perform yourself. This might be a proper and correct way to push you into a higher level in your performance stage. At the same time, this might also the wrong way to push you into higher level. It is depend on what would you like to think and how would you like to think and act about yourself regarding to self performance. ^^ This is very important. Nothing free gift will fall on your top unless you challenge and fight for it. This is the only way to promote and sell yourself strength to others or competitors. No body will get free gift, except the bird shit which fall from the sky. haha...^^. I am always holding some theories and concepts which might lead you to think that i am kinda stubborn of selves thinking. But it is the real and fact of life. We supposed to act and behave so, at the same time you might refuse to behave so. And what would you get is "BAD" and "ZERO". ^^ Believe my nonsenses, this is real and fact. Do keep in your mind and remind yourself. Otherwise you will only stay the place where you are as the old big tree beside the road. haha......
I did a great challenge in my life. I did it well and i am satisfied with the result from fight, Its worth. ^^ I think there is no problem for coming challenge and task. I still keep the same theories and concepts for another half of my life. I do believe someday later i might independent, I do believe someday later I might hit what I am targeting. ^^ Just the time is short, I do not know which target that will hit by my leg first. haha.... As we known, "LIFE IS SHORT" just do whatever you wish to do, just fight whatever you want to fight, and just challenge whatever you wish to challenge with. Let's live without any regret in your short life. But please do appreciate whatever chances and opportunities which freezing in front of your eye regardless which area or field it is, at the same time do appreciate for your love one which would always missed you before fall sleep but you do not know and do not realize that your love one is missing you before fall asleep. Keep in mind, "APPRECIATE" whatever you having now. Do not complaint about fate, but treasure your living. There are not always chances and opportunities will stick with you, just catch the short chances and opportunities fly across you. ^^ After caught, then only you will realize it is worth for your scarified while holding the chances and opportunities on your hand, even it is though and shape while in the process, in the mean while you might think to give up. Please do not give up anything even is though enough. Please do try your best to achieve and fix with it. You will only feel the sweetness after bitterness in the process. ^^
Wah, so much nonsenses from me, unbelievable. haha....anywhere, I wish you all the best and try to catch what i wanna bring to you. You might deny and ignore my personal recommends and nonsenses. By the way, this is only my personal stubborn view. ^^ hehe..... Good luck. ^^
One Hundred and Forty-Nine
Everybody do make wish for their new brand year for their life. This become nature and normal, everybody will do so for a new opened daily of a new coming year. Have you do some wishes for yourself and for who you concerning? Or do make wishes on behalf of somebody? Whatever wishes and hopes you made, here i am praying for you to realize everything your are wishing and hoping in your life. Because i wish all of my friend would be health and happy forever. I would like to see you in well condition when i meet you up someday. In fact of wish all of my friend all the best and healthy always. Definitely, i do have some wishes and hopes in this year which is year 2011. I can share what wishes and hopes for myself. ^^1. I wish my family and sibling health forever and belong to me forever.
2. I wish all my special friends, important friends and normal friends health forever and all the best. This year would be your year, would be good fortune year. ^^
3. I wish myself always in good condition regarding to health issue.
4. I hope i can get something special that i never gain before in my life.
5. I hope i will love you guys and girls forever during my life, unless i get leave this world earlier than you.
7 Jan 2011. I am in good condition not meaning that i will in good condition as well in coming future time and days. ^^ This is only my personal feeling and this is my pessimistic of my thinking and view. This is the truth and the process that should go through and this thinking is in -ve way instead of console human in a +ve thinking way. I can accept whatever challenges and fortune comes to me. I do try to challenge and fight with them. This only human life. ^^
I accepted one new bad fortune in this year. Just few days ago in 2011, I feel something bad and poor that might kill me due to my health problem. I did checking for my body, am i having something wrong? Am i having some health problem. I am not in professional field guy, and finally went for a consultation appointment with a doctor. Doctor said, " oh i see, nothing problem, don't worry about it, i give you some medicine, that would be fine soon". =.=''''' this is what we heard from doctor normally right? haha. Until today, i still can not feel any well and recovery from my body. But this is what my fortune which i have to gone through and i have to fight. haha. But do not worry woh, I am just getting tendon hurt due to over exercise. ^^ haha....But I am discussing something like very serious right? haha..... Don't worry, just small case nia. Just one of my poor is pessimistic thinking la ....haha ^^
Start from countdown's day until today, i never skip to take medicine. Does it a good year for me or a bad for me? I am tiring to challenge with god and fortune. But whatever "IT" give me, i will try to challenge and fight. ^^ So do you as well?
Anywhere, God will bless you guys and girls, i wish you all the best in this year. ^^ Just enjoy. ^^
One Hundred and Forty-Five
Happy New Year 2011. A new day with a new brand year within various hopes, different wishes, separated strategies, and colourful painted directions. Let make a wish together for this world, wish world would be peaceful and green forever. Definitely, I got to make a new wish for myself as well. ^^ erm...let me think about the new wish first. It gonna be something special that i never achieve before, and that must be something I never try before. haha. at the same time it must be something positive without any negative. I do not wish to have some bad think and do not wish to have some bad stuff. This is only my simplest wish. But have to depend on the fortune and luck. ^^Happy new year 2011. just enjoy the special moment in your life. everything would be delighted by rainbow colour in your life. ^^
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